Wah! I woke up this morning and it's SO much snow here! HELP! I want summer. Wrote with my malaysian friends in facebook and with my parents (Singapore) and it's sooo warm overthere. Want to go back to Singapore. Missing Asia!!! ;(

My bleeding is weaker than yesterday and I took some laxatives.
Yesterday I've had horrible pains like uterine contractions and if I combine the bleeding and the pains and everything what happend last weeks, I'm thinking that maybe I've had a misscarriage yesterday??? what the fuck? okay, if I really have been pregnant so I'm glad bout having a misscarriage... ^^ I don't care. Losing weight is important. Nothing else matters.

I've a new recipe for you I did yesterday. It has had bout 300 cal or something like that.

You need:
- flour
- egg white
- low fat milk
- low fat cheese
- vegetables
- spinach
- champignons
- low fat cottage cheese

make pan cakes of flour, egg white and milk.
then heat up spinach with spices and cottage cheese and champignons in it.
cook the vegetables in vegetable stock

fill the spinach in the pancakes and fold them together. give them in a casserole dish, do the vegetables in it and do the cheese over everything. give it in the oven.

it will look like that:

I've still lost no weight from yesterday to today.
So I made a refeed day with 800 calories. Tomorrow i will not go on my scales. But I will tell you on monday if my refeed worked.

Bought a new jeans today. Size 27 fitted but I bought 28 cuz I don't like it if jeans are so tight.
4 weeks ago I wore size 30. :)

pro ana down

The Pro Ana group in Facebook was deleted. Lisa is in the hospital. I read it on her blog. I'm not able to create a new one cuz it's my real name in FB with real friends who are not ana. And when I was admin of PRO ANA I've been deleted last time. It was a torture getting my account back.

Maybe one of the Anas with fake account can create a new one?

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Yesterday I ate bout 250 cal and gained 300g until today. But I've something like intermenstrual bleeding and I hope that's just water letting my weight rise.

Today I've had bout 300 cal and am not sure if I shall stay on my scales tomorrow... I was so frustrated today in the morning. Yesterday 50,6 and today 50,9... (sometimes the scales showed 51kg)

Was no good day...

I'll write again.

Lovely

sikia njaa

Hi. I gained 100g from yesterday to today. 50,6kg... Don't know why. Ate only 400cal yesterday. I'm always losing weight if I eat more than 500 cal and I don't lose much (or GAIN!) if I eat under 500 cal. Strange...

But I don't care. I will not eat more than 400 cal today... :( Mh.

I need another 2,6kg for reaching my aim.

Stay strong.

Good morning my dears

maybe you remember my speedup 2 days ago. I ate 700 cal on monday. I was depressed in the evening cuz I ate like a pig. On monday I've had 51.1 (112.4 lbs). Then on tuesday I've had 51.6kg (113.5 lbs) cuz of the speedup on monday and I thought that it was no good idea to speedup (and I've to say that the speedup wasnt voluntary...).
Today I stood on the scales and - oh wow - 50,5 (111 lbs). I lost 600g (1.3 lbs) in 2 days with my little speedup on monday.
Now I've a BMI of 18.11 and I'm really happy and a little bit proud. 27 days ago I've had 55kg (121 lbs) and now 4,5kg (10 lbs) less. :)

Stay strong my Anas.

I'm there for you and thank you very much for being there for me. Without you I wouldnt reach any aim... THANKS!

I love you!

sikia njaa*


PS:

I realized that I reached my aim for next monday today!
My old plan was:


Monday, January 25 - 51,2kg
Monday, February 1 - 50,5kg
Monday, February 8 - 50,0kg

- holiday from 2/10 - 2/21 -

Monday, February 22 - 50,0kg
Monday, March 1 - 49kg
Monday, March 8 - 48,5kg
Monday, March 15 - !48kg!


My new plan is:

Monday, February 1 - 50 kg
Monday, February 8 - 49.5 kg

- holiday from 2/10 - 2/21 -

Monday, February 22 - 49.5 kg
Monday, March 1 - 48.7 kg
Monday, March 8 - 48 kg

competition results

Hey there!

Here are the results of our competition!
We lost in one week from monday to monday 22,7 lbs! :)

Sierra WON :)

1. Sierra -> 5'7", 156 lbs -> 145 lbs = LOST 11 lbs
2. Honnie -> 5'2", 118 lbs -> 114 lbs = LOST 4 lbs
2. Michael -> 5'2", 95 lbs -> 91 lbs = LOST 4 lbs
3. Catrine -> 5'5", 115,9 lbs -> 112,2 lbs = LOST 3,7 lbs
4. Alina -> 5'6", 108 lbs -> 107 lbs = LOST 1 lbs
5. Terri -> 5'7", 143 lbs -> 143 lbs = LOST 0 lbs


NO ANSWER

- Hanna -> 5'5", 108,9 lbs
- Amanda -> 5'6", 186 lbs
- Audrey -> 5'6", 123lbs

Thanks for your comments on my former posting! :)

Now - like promised - the recipe:

*Great Grated Veggies with Tahini Dressing* (vegan)

for 6 servings!

Ingredients:
Dressing
*1,5 tablespoons tahini (sesame paste)
*2-3 tablespoons lemon juice, to taste
*1 tablespoon agave nectar
*2 tablespoons vegan mayonnaise
*1 tablespoon minced fresh dill or 1/4 teaspoon dried

*4 cups grated raw vegetables (use a combination of trimmed and peeled broccoli stems, carrots, turnip, jicama, golden beets, and dalkon radish - choose 2 or 3)
*salt and freshly ground pepper to taste


1. combine the dressing ingredients in a small bowl and stir together.
2. place the grated vegetables and dressing in a serving bowl. Toss until completely combined. Season with salt and pepper and toss again. Serve at once.

Enjoy!

70 calories and 3,5g fat per serving.

Underweight

Good morning.

Today is a good day!!! I. Have. Underweight!!!!! I'm at 51,1kg. What means: I've a BMI of 18,3!!!!! =D cooooooool :) First aim reached! 3kg more and I'm the happiest human alive (2,5kg more and I've Anorexia BMI).

But I'll show you 2 photos. I took them today in the morning. There you can see that I'm really NOT thin with 51,1kg! :(

Recipe comes later. But now have a look on my body :(

hey there,

it's 8.30 pm in Germany now and I ate 380 calories today. Yesterday I ate nearly 600!!! :( Hope that was a litte speed-up for my metabolism.

I've my bikini here now. And my walking shoes. Ah, and my bicycle ^^ so sports can start. :)
I will go swimming on tuesday and on friday.

I don't know my weight today cuz I slept at my brothers. But tomorrow I will let you know the actual weight.
And I will post the next recipe tomorrow (it will be completely vegan).

Good night! =)

I only lost 100g from yesterday to today!!! what the fuck? :( i'm so depressed!!! that's not fair anyway... :( 51.6kg
my aim was 51.2kg on monday. keep your fingers crossed for me.

tomorrow i will not write any recipe cuz i'm on tour but on sunday comes the next on.

the recipe for today is called:

PINEAPPLE CRUSH!
(recipe for 4 persons!!!)

ingredients:
*1/2 small pineapple (ca. 225g without paring)
*2-3 teaspoons maple sirup
*150ml orange juice
*2 teaspoons powdered ginger
*300ml ginger ale or mineral water

1. peel the pineapple, cut the flesh in pieces. do it in the mixer and puree it for 1 minute. stirr maple sirup and orange juice and puree again.

2. add the ginger powder and mix it shortly. fill 4 big glasses with crushed ice and pour the juice in it. fill it with ginger ale or mineral water.

-> 52 cal per 300ml!!!

Today I've had 51,7kg. That's good. Until now I ate 315 calories. Think that will be everything (I will just eat jelly with 36 cal today, so I will have 351 cal).

Some tips:
- eat calcium and vitamin c for your teeth
- eat magnesium for your muscles
- eat potassium for your heart

@tin - thanks for your comment. unfortunately if i try to answer as comment it doesn't appear. so i write it in the blog posting :) i'm 25 years old and 1,67m high. you can see it at former posts and in the competition where i'm taking part! ;)


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New recipe today :)

*Apple-Raspberry-Dessert*
(for 4 persons)

ingredients:
*450g apples, peeled, without seeds and cutted in pieces
*1 tablespoon honey
*1 teaspoon cinnamon
*2-3 tablespoons water
*300g low fat yogurt
*140g raspberries

1. do apples, honey, cinnamon and water in a pot and heat it slowly. let it simmer for 12-15 minutes while stirring (until the apples are smooth). let it cool down.

2. do the yogurt in a big pot and stir the apple puree in it. fold in the raspberries.
share it in 4 bowls and do it at least for 1 hour in the fridge.

-> 96 cal per serving.

enjoy!!!

good evening

ate 485 cal today.

My favorite recipe: JellO/Jelly with Sweetener. 7,5cal per 100g! =D

Have another recipe for you:

*Baked eggs with tomato-salsa*

- BE CAREFUL, THE RECIPE IS FOR 4 PERSONS!!! DIVIDE THROUGH 4 FOR 1 PERSON -

for the salsa:
*2 ripe tomatoes, finely chopped
*3 spring onions, finely chopped
*2-3cm cucumber, finely chopped
*tabasco (as much as you like)
*1 tablespoon chopped coriander

for the eggs:
*olive oil
*4 eggs
*pepper

1. preheat the oven on 180°C. For the salsa stir tomatoes, spring onions, cucumber and tabasco in a small pot.

2. grease 4 cups with olive oil and give 1 spoon of salsa in each. Give one egg in each cup carefully.
fill a casserole one-third with water and place the cups in it (no water in the cups!!). flavor the eggs with pepper.
give everything in the oven.

3. bake the eggs for 8-12 minutes. then warm up the rest of the salsa in the pot. stir the coriander. give the warm salsa on top of the eggs in the cups.

eat it with spoons out of the cups :)

-> 93 cals per serving!

Ana Recipes

* Vegetables, Tofu and Rice *

* 100g Tofu (105 cal)
* 100g Champignons (25 cal)
* 100g Zucchini (16 cal)
* 20g Rice (unboiled) (70 cal)
* 1 Tablespoon oil (90 cal)

-> Boil the rice. Then all together in a pan. Salt + Pepper. Very delicious. 300 calories!



* Ana Pizza *

* 50g wholemeal flour (150 cal)
* Water (0 cal)
* 1 Package of dry yeast (25 cal)
* Salt (0 cal)
* 100g Light cream cheese (66 cal)
* 50g Ruccola salad (12 cal)
* 1 Tomato (20 cal)
* 1 Tablespoon tomato puree (12 cal)

-> mix a dough with flour, water, yeast and salt (maybe other spices, what you like).
Let it raise in a warm place.
Then roll the dough, put the tomato puree on it. Then the cream cheese. Do spices on it, then ruccola and after that the tomato in slices.

Time and heat varies.

-> 285 calories.

lost anyway

Good morning.

Yesterday I made rice with veggie burger and champignons. I was so hungry. Today on my scales I was really wondering cuz I lost 200g anyway.
Now I'm at 52,0kg. (On my old scales it would be 50,8 *cry*)

Just 3,1kg more and I see the 48 on my scales... Wonderful. :)

I will eat 200-300 calories and the other day 400-600 calories. i think that's good for speeding up metabolism! :)

new plan cuz of new scales

Because my scales are not working at home and I've new scales, I need a new plan.

So, my scales at home showed 1,2kg less than reality... On my scales at home I'm 51kg right now, like my plan was... But now, my new scales show 52,2kg. So I need a new plan... You see.

Monday, January 25 - 51,2kg
Monday, February 1 - 50,5kg
Monday, February 8 - 50,0kg

- holiday from 2/10 - 2/21 -

Monday, February 22 - 50,0kg
Monday, March 1 - 49kg
Monday, March 8 - 48,5kg
Monday, March 15 - !48kg!

Yesterday I ate 180 calories and today i've fucking diarrhoe (like the devil's in me) without laxatives. I don't know why, but because of being a good ana, of course.. i welcome it!

I've 52,2kg today and I'm so glad to know that on my old scales it would be 51kg! :)

I'm cold, I've bruises on my knees and on my spine. I'm happy bout that! That's so cool, hurting knees at night. :)

Just 4kg more and I've reached my aim!!!

12 hours sports...

I moved today. And my new flat is ready... 12 packing cases, two book cases (bolted down on the ceiling), a commode, a wardrobe, a couch, a coffee table,... and the flat is ready! I unloaded each packing case... I'm dead! But it was 12 hours sports! ;) And I ate 200 calories only! Very good! =)

Love you

*sikia njaa from her new flat!

WEIGHT LOSS COMPETITION! - Participants! -

Here I will write down the participants. On sunday I'll write down the current weight and the ambitions!

WHO WILL LOSE THE MOST FROM MONDAY TO MONDAY????

STARTS JANUARY 18! ENDS JANUARY 25!

Write me if you want to join!

PLEASE SEND ME A PRIVATE MESSAGE (!!!) ON MONDAY, JANUARY 25, WITH YOUR NEW WEIGHT!!! NOT IN THE PRO ANA GROUP BUT VIA PM!

- Hanna -> 5'5", 108,9 lbs
- Catrine -> 5'5", 115,9 lbs
- Michael -> 5'2", 95 lbs
- Terri -> 5'7", 143 lbs
- Alina -> 5'6", 108 lbs
- Amanda -> 5'6", 186 lbs
- Honnie -> 5'2", 118 lbs
- Sierra -> 5'7", 156 lbs
- Audrey -> 5'6", 123lbs

FROM SUNDAY TO MONDAY NO LAXATIVES!

*stagnation*

My weight is stagnating and I don't know why... I'm so despaired... :'(
I weigh 52,5kg now (fucking new scale ruins my life).

If there is no weight loss until monday, I'll start exercising. Fuck you, body! I'll get ya.

cold in here

My heater is working again. It didn't work last night and I was so fucking cold!

Today I ate 620 calories (BINGED!) and feel overeaten and fat. ;(

I WANNA WEIGH 48 KG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :....(

3,8 kg...

* I'D RATHER BE DEAD THAN FAT *
* BECAUSE THE MIRROR HURTS MORE THAN STARVIN *
* STAY STRONG - STARVE ON *

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I can’t laugh to hard I’m on a diet
I’m trying to lose myself
You ought to try it
Just starve for 6 days straight
Oh it’s a riot
Every Sunday night

I binch and I barve cause I carry the scars of an eight-year-old
Who’s mother applied the same rules to a kids body
As her own

I think you’ll leave me soon
Though I’ve no proof of it
But I’ll make it easier for you
By being a little bitch
And this is just the fear
But I think the reason
Why I’m scared you broke is

The only male influence I’ve had
After daddy up and left
Were my mother’s weekend lovers and
Their alcoholic breaths

I’ll tell u what caused it
If u handle the effects (the effects 2x)
Yes I’ll tell u what caused it
If u handle the effects (the effects 2x)
I’ll tell u what caused it
If u handle the effects
Yes I’ll tell u what caused it
If u handle the effects

I can’t laugh to hard I’m on a diet
I’m trying to lose myself
You ought to try it
Just starve for 6 days straight Oh it’s a riot
Every Sunday night

(Maria Mena - cause and effect)

Back!

Here I am again.

1. My facebook account is reactivated.
2. My scale at home told me lies! :(

I've a new scale now (I moved in a new flat and was at Ikea and there I bought a new scale).

Yesterday in the morning on my OLD scale I weighed 51,5kg.
I JUST ate ONE fucking salad without sauce, ONE small gingerbread and drank ONE coffee with milk!!! I ate fucking 180 calories yesterday.

And now I stood on my new scale and weigh 51,8kg. That means that my old scale told me lies... Cuz it's not possible to GAIN 300g if you eat fucking 180 calories!!!

Okay... I'm depressed now... But okay... I have to manage it...
Next weekend is my aim: 51,5kg max.

Chin up, baby, chin up...