hungry and sad

Hey friends,

I'm sitting here in my living room and am hungry. I ate 3 pieces of chocolate today, cuz my friend extended it to me. I drank 3 cups of coffee with 0,1% fat milk. I think I've something like 150-200 calories today.

I wrote an email to my special friend. To the one I love. A very very strange and soulstripping email. I'm waiting for an answer since 5 hours. I'm sitting here and smoke cigarettes, listening to sad music and candles light my way.

I'm sad today... :(

PS! stood on my scales the first time in the morning. Was too curious. 53,6kg this morning. :(