Hey there!
Today I ate nothing all day long, but then my special friend came and I drank 3 glasses of redwine and ate a handful of vegan gummy bears, 2 pieces of vegan chocolate and 3 slices of vegan cheese. Feeling fat and overeaten :(


But I've a good message! I stood with a fellow student in front of the university this morning and I bemoaned the coldness. I said "Well, I'm wearing two pullovers, two pairs of trousers, two pairs of sox and I'm freezing anyway!"
My fellow student answered: "If I was as thin as you, I would also freeze!!!"
WOOOOOOOOOW!!!! I was SOOOO happy!!!! Although I've had 53,4kg this morning and although she's thinner than me... Yeeeah :)

Kisses
sikia njaa

hungry and sad

Hey friends,

I'm sitting here in my living room and am hungry. I ate 3 pieces of chocolate today, cuz my friend extended it to me. I drank 3 cups of coffee with 0,1% fat milk. I think I've something like 150-200 calories today.

I wrote an email to my special friend. To the one I love. A very very strange and soulstripping email. I'm waiting for an answer since 5 hours. I'm sitting here and smoke cigarettes, listening to sad music and candles light my way.

I'm sad today... :(

PS! stood on my scales the first time in the morning. Was too curious. 53,6kg this morning. :(

Hej my dears,
today I've had 210 calories and I'm really filled up. Was hungry all day long and so I decided to make a soup (100kcal), added a little bit low fat cream cheese and milk and that's it.
Oh, and I drank a cup of coffee with low fat milk, but that's already included in the calculation.

My family and friends suspect nothing. They don't suspect, that I'm back in the fight against my body. That Alice is back in Hungerland.

I like it. It gives me a head start, which I should capitalize.

Hej Anas,

here I am.
It works!

* 2 cups of coffee with fatfree milk = 40kcal
* 1 Nescafé Express vanilla = 123 kcal
* 1 glass of juice = 86 kcal

249 kcal today.


It's really really great, no, it's perfect! :) I'm so happy and I'm hungry like a hunter. Some of my friends laughed at me, when I said I will weigh 42kg in February. Just them wait...

I'm so motivated, wanted to go for a run this morning, but my runners are 100km away from here. *argh* :(

But 249 calories are also great. Even without sports. ;)

Love you all!

!!! I - AM - FUCKING - BACK !!!

Hey guys, I know, I didn't write for a very very fucking very long time! But everything was so horrible.
My mum came to Germany and she stood believe it or not for SIX months!!!!!!!
I saw her everytime and she cooked and baked just things I really LOVE!

I'd become so unbelievable FAT during the summer. So fat that I'm afraid of using my scales! My clothes (XS) don't fit for a long time! I'm wearing my old clothes in size M. I've a pair of trousers in my wardrobe in size XS... :( I'm missing it!

I will strike back now. I'm back in the fight against myself!

I don't know, how much I weigh, that's the reason why I won't weigh myself until I haven't started my diet. I'm starting NOW.
I'll weigh myself in 2 weeks for the first time!

I wanna have 42kg on february 14th and I hope its realizable.

Kisses, your
sikjanjaa, glad to be back again!

PS! Dear anas, please stop taking laxatives. I did it EVERYTIME and now I've really big problems since 6 months, although I didn't take them from that time on! Every second day I'm afflicted with diarrhea and it's really sucking, you can take it from me...

PPS! I. am. hungry!!!! :)