Okay, I really wanna be dead!!!

My new scales showed 56,1kg yesterday.
Then I've been walking for 30 minutes, drank 3 litres of tea and ate 700 kcal.

And what happened?

I weigh 56,4kg today on my new scales and 56,9kg on the old one.

WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT??? I lost 100g since monday!!!!! HELP ME!!!

Today I'll eat more to leverage my metabolism. Tomorrow I'll eat not more than 300 kcal and will take laxatives. Oh please help me... I wanna be dead... I really really wanna be dead.

Hej Huns!

It's wonderful to know that there are some of you still reading! :)))

Today I ate 600kcal and bought a new scales, because I don't trust the other one anymore!!! It shows 57kg every day! Since Monday! Monday: 57, Tuesday: 57, Wednesday: 57... Whatta? That's impossible!

Now I'll test the new one tomorrow! :)

Here I am

Dear Anas,

I've eaten 450kcal today (yesterday 600 but my weight was still on 57kg this morning).
I downloaded a couple of Apps for my iPhone which help losing weight. Do you know any Ana-App? What are your favorite Diet-Apps?!

Is there anybody reading my blog? :(

sikia njaa

Crying

Dear Anas,

it's me.
I've been on my scales this morning and it showed 57kg. I can't remember that I've ever been so fat...?! It's 10kg more than in March 2010 and I don't understand how that's possible!!!

I feel so blue and could cry. What shall I do?!
My aim is 47kg again until 5/9, what do you think, it's possible?! :(

I feel sick and dizzy...
I'm going to read that blog from the get-go and hope for triggering... :(

sikia njaa :(

HELP ME!